Lexus_kevin's Xanga

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 10:30:01 GMT

I am so looking forward to coming Sunday...I miz u guys so much...it will only last for 2 hrs..but it means a lot to me n keep me going for the rest of the time

Monday, January 12, 2009

Mon, 12 Jan 2009 01:48:58 GMT

I am definitely a loser in this game

I lost my determination to fight and carry on

The effort that I put in is never positively associated with what I am getting back

People asked me " What make you love her so much? What expectation do u still have? "

My answer was "I dunno, I rili dunno"

I got no expectation at all, what I am expecting is you will leave me sooner or later

"So, what keep u going, are u crazy?"

But I still wanna try when u said u still love me

I think it's time to end the story

I rili can't make it

I can't wait for one more day

I am all on my own

When u need support, u can straightly go to me

Who the hell can I go to?

"sorry, i can't speak at the moment, he is next to me"

"where are u?"

"Ohhh....I am in the toilet that's y i can talk to u"

It 's such a torture to me

I hv tried my best to respect ur feeling

u told me u love Jay Chou

there u go

你要我說多難堪我根本不想分開

為什么還要我用微笑來帶過

我沒有這種天份包容你也接受他

不用擔心的太多我會一直好好過

你已經遠遠離開我也會慢慢走開

為什么我連分開都遷就著你

我真的沒有天份安靜的沒這么快

我會學著放棄你是因為我太愛你

plz let me go, if u dun love me, if u dun hv the determination to make the history wiv me

Make the decision and Let me go

Friday, January 09, 2009

Fri, 09 Jan 2009 07:31:05 GMT

I am only one step away from my dream, and also you

Before becoming a competent person, I do not dare to say a word

I m sitting here trying to convince myself that u r not the one for me
but the more I think, the less i believe that and the more I want u here with me

I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did and I didn't mean to get so close
and share what we have done and I didn't mean to fall in love
but unfortunately I did and i know u didn't mean to love me back
but I know you did

The enemy you are facing now, is more or less a reflection of urself

The conflict between ur id and ur ego

I know u r kind of in a dilemma and I am also facing the same situation as u did

Too many consequences and reasoning behind every single decison associated together with love, hate, memory, stiff emotion,basically everything which it can't be even calculated by the most sophisticated device in the world

So I hope u understand my feeling towards u and also figure out how is ur feeling towards me

Forget the past, Memory fades, Feeling stays

Even though we are far away, days and nites I will wait

Keep the Faith baby, we will find our way

你是怎樣的一個人，你就會遇見怎樣的一個自己。你相信自己值得擁有美好的將來，你的將來就會如你所想般美好

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 15:04:22 GMT

Wish Me Luck
Give Me The Chance To Devote Myself For The Society
The Closer I get
Bigger The Chance Is
More Stressful It Is Going To Be

Merry Xmas My Friends

Monday, December 15, 2008

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 13:39:16 GMT

Some of us think that confident and stress is negative associated
However, I am kind of experiencing it in another way round
No matter how confident I am, stress seems to be inseparable from me
How can i relax?
Less than an hour can alter my whole life
It gives values to my life
no only to me
and also to my friend and family

養兵千日，用在一時
抱着破斧沈舟的决心
亦抱着平常心，無取、無捨、無執著的心態去承受結果。

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

Wed, 03 Dec 2008 13:36:26 GMT

I can't eat
I can't sleep
Stress is becoming a close friend of mine
Self-confidence is going up and down like roller-coaster and stock market
It can be sunshine in the morning but suddenly turns into cats and dogs
There's hope in the future and but also failure which can easily take me down in a sec if the glimmer hope vanish
Too few failures lied in front of me b4 going into these tasks
I am too weak and incompetent
There's room for improvement to overcome my shortages
But time is short
Working like hell generates enormous amount of pressure
Dilemmas and contradictation is bombarding every single neurons in my brain
Where and who the hell can i go to?
U guys wanna scream?
U guys hv been treated unfairly?
They can go to me
But where can i divert that to?

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Thu, 27 Nov 2008 16:34:30 GMT

留下來，或者我跟你走

有可能在現實生活發生嗎?

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Wed, 26 Nov 2008 12:45:27 GMT

Erikson is most famous for his work in refining and expanding Freud's theory of stages.

Development, he said, functions by the epigenetic principle. This principle says that we develop through a predetermined unfolding of our personalities in eight stages. Our progress through each stage is in part determined by our success, or lack of success, in all the previous stages.

A little like the unfolding of a rose bud, each petal opens up at a certain time, in a certain order, which nature, through its genetics, has determined. If we interfere in the natural order of development by pulling a petal forward prematurely or out of order, we ruin the development of the entire flower.

Please dun interfere with my motives, please dun interfere with my life. No matter it turns out to be successful or not , the process is what it counts for a healthy development ,despite the result.

Leave me alone or else I 'll leave

Sunday, November 09, 2008

Sun, 09 Nov 2008 16:54:34 GMT

說好的幸福呢

熱愛hip hop的好友突然有一天推介一首與他風馬牛不相及的歌給我，周杰倫的說好的幸福呢

這首歌是有所有意圖追回某個共同建構的幸福承諾的人。你不等了說好的幸福呢/我錯了淚乾了放手了後悔了/只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉要怎麼停呢，當我們站在受傷的那一方，也不一定能輕易向你深愛的人逼問。你不是說過會好好愛我嗎？你忘了當天如何信誓旦旦答應不會再傷害我了嗎？怎麼你竟然一次又一次的背叛？是誰說過從今以後會永遠珍惜我的？

伴你斷斷續續唱着歌假裝沒事了/時間過了走了愛情面臨選擇/你冷了倦了我哭了/一開始的不快樂你用卡片細寫著有些愛只給到這真的懂了，明知說來無用，明知說出口，只會讓大家脆弱維繫的關係毀於一旦，我們只好沉默，在心裏默默流血流淚，任由愛情隨同沉默死去。

你說歌詞賺人熱淚，可是我己經沒有感覺。時間和經歷會使一個人漸漸變得麻目，是潛意識的自我保護或是理性地把愛情看得透切，我不曉得。

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Thu, 06 Nov 2008 18:42:37 GMT

走霉運的人會問：「明明不曾作過壞事，為甚麼無妄之災偏要從天而降？」

世事的因果超乎人類的理解範圍，只能視之為無常。既是無常，與其深究原因，不如能集中精神善後。

處於亂世，人人自身難保，一早決心依靠自己比較好。朋友極其量聽你發牢騷。最後，突破困局的仍得靠自己。

霉運當頭，無人可信，無人可靠，這時只能信自己—爛船總有三斤釘。一個人再沒用，再失意，總有可取之處，總有可做之事。還可以做些甚麼去扭轉局面？還有甚麼生存技能？這些別人都不能代你回答，你只能依靠自己尋找答案。

你也需要相信「否極泰來」，只要付出耐性，咬緊牙關，霉運總有盡頭的一天。處於低潮的你會問：「憑甚麼相信明天會更好？」

這是一個信念，只要相信，不要質問。抗逆需要大量精力和堅強的意志，心情長期不好，則難以振作精神，更遑論反敗為勝。